So right now for some reason im not feeling to good. My tummy is upset…my hearts pounding. Im beyond sleepy. I attempted to take a nap but as usual that was a fail. I could lay still couldnt keep my eye shut couldnt relax all I could do is think and think and think and think until I decided to give up. I wrote about what was on mine mind which happened to be the depressing way I felt about being an introvert nd having anxiety and having social phobia nd being afraid of the world bc I just think the world is ole so cruel. ……which I know is not true…but some reason my mind tends to differ. I never noticed how serious my problems have become. And I think theyre possibly getting worse. Maybe only becuase I am actually noticing and paying more attention to them than I did when I just didnt understand why I am the way that I am. I can just imagin how real crazy ppl feel when they hear the voices inside their heads that the cant get rid of.the once who are called psychotic. Sometimes I just want to shut everything down….nd just give up. Nd make myself believe that I absolutely cant live like this…I dnt have to live like this…..that bothers me is how easy the access would be to shut everything down nd no longer have to worry. Thats the scary part. For the first time youll ever hear me say this…I just want to be normal……I dnt want to be shy or social phobia, I dnt want to make myself believe that im a depressed introvert when I truly know that im not and that being a introvert is actually normal. I want to beable to not have negative thoughts stacked up in my mind from sun up to sun down.I want to not have to deal with anxiety….I just want to be normal….
Between my social phobia, my anxiety and my stubbornness, I cant deal….im so afraid of the world but the world can be so cruel. So I stay under my in my shell where itself nd I dnt have to worry about anyone hurting me. I dnt feel like I have to socialize with ppl…I dnt feel like I need to be around ppl. Hell I dnt even feel like I need friends(plural)….I actually would love to have just one good friend who understands, who is patient and honest nd can relate to my conditions.that all I need nd ill be good…..I guess ill be fine until I get it…..ill be good.
I’m starting to struggle to communicate. I don’t understand it.
I find it difficult to maintain eye contact, even with people I love. I run out of things to say, even though before and after the conversation I think of a million things I want to chat to them about. I feel a strange compulsion to…
Ive been dealing with this for yrs….never knew why…always thought something was wrong with me. Conversating became stressful for me…its weird bc I looove to talk. I can run my mouth for some hrs if you let me….but sometimes I feel like in order to keep the conversation going , I have to FORCE my self to say the next right thing……it has to be cool or perfect. The conversations that I have in my head are flawless but in reality…..when I speak, I get tongue tied, I say the wrong words, my mind goes blank…I thought maybe I was just afraid of ppl nd speakin to ppl made me nervous. ….idk….but I know exactly what you’re going through
Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to…
Christmas Break means I can sleep all day and be on Tumblr all night.